Summon your inner artist by letting go. Stop being so selfish with who you are. You have the courage to show the world you're twisted, so go all the way and show them just how twisted you are, there's always more. Slay the editor.
Begin the dark notes. Release your forbidden thoughts and personality. Don't force it and be honest. Fearlessness infused with sincerity. Honesty helps you feel something other than fear while you're performing. Less fear, less anxiety, more clarity of thought, more confidence.